It’s so hard to believe that baby J is 1 year old!! I think back to the day that he was born and remember it like it was just a few weeks ago. I remember going into the hospital the night before he was born to be monitored, and to experiment with the best way to induce so we could meet baby J the next day! I remember being so nervous about how it was all going to happen, and if I was going to be able to have a natural birth like I wanted. I was so overwhelmed the day baby J was born; overwhelmed with intense contractions, anxiousness on how it was all going to go, fatigue, and extreme joy. I wouldn’t have done it any other way. I was able to experience how everything felt and how powerful God is, while acknowledging that God made me and created the birthing process. I prayed a lot between contractions. I knew He was right there with my birthing team. My birth story is a testament to how doulas and/or midwives can help a natural birth happen with love and support and without trauma and drama. Everyone on my birthing team played a major role that day in helping me meet my adorable son. After about seven hours of true labor, baby J came into the world. I remember feeling relieved and amazed and awed all at the same time. It’s a baby! It’s my baby! And he is cute!
I don’t know if anything or anyone can prepare you for what it is like to take a newborn home. It’s entirely nerve-wracking and exhausting. My baby boy was a difficult newborn. He cried a LOT. I remember barely getting any sleep. At the time, I remembered reading advice from other new moms before I had baby J, and there was one piece of advice that was repeated a lot. Don’t be afraid to ask for help and when someone offers to help say yes every time! I did exactly that. My mom came and stayed with us for 9 days and then my best friend Sarah came and stayed for 4 days. I asked both of them if they could pull a night duty with Jacob, and just bring him to me to nurse when he was hungry. The church delivered meals every few days so I didn’t have to cook! I didn’t really socialize much those first 2-4 weeks. The baby blues had taken me over. I fed Jacob, fed myself, and showered. If I wasn’t doing those things I was sleeping. I am so grateful for the help from my friends and family those first few weeks.
I love and cherish each day with my baby boy. God has truly blessed our family. I have an amazing husband who I am in love with and the sweetest baby boy! And my golden retriever Suzy. She’s the best dog, and I can’t forget her! She lets baby J crawl all over her and pull her hair, and she loves it.